the night gets longer. the sun will come shortly and all the people will forget about whatever it was they worried about before they went to bed. If only i could get to my happiness i know everything would be ok.i'm not made for school. i'm not made for normal people. I'm made to play music, to teach people about the life which they have ignored for their lifetimes. Money only buys so much, but you can't buy the knowledge of life. it has to be aquired through gut wrenching pain and awkwardness. Through darkness, tears, blood, pills, and long walks. If everyone would just stop for a moment, maybe they would begin to see the world for the fucked up george orwell place it is. i tried so hard to think normally, but alas I am a foreign identity to myself.

Alright so i got to school this morning thinking that something good was going to happen...ha ...yea....i got to take a quiz. wonderful. It made me so happy.
I lost my ATM card and had to get a new one and in the process had to transfer most of my money to pay off an overdraft...poooooooooooooooooooooopy....i guess i gotta go tell dad that i need money...man that makes me feel like shit...
I hope some people today realize that if they don't do something productive they're out. I love you to death man but please, go job hunting, go get signed up for school, go sign up for your drivers test, please. I'm not trying to be a dick but i just don't understand i guess...
Anyways i'm going to go get an ice cream bar from the cafeteria and eat it. later

Ok so well. Where do i start? I went to the wesley show tonight....and i ended up driving with amanda. When i got to the show i saw that geoff and pete were there and i knew justin and dave were on the way so i coaxed geoff into playing a set at the end of the night...or that was my plan at least. AFter we had been at the show and a certain someone decided she wanted to get all drunk, than decided she was going to DRIVE HOME my plans changed. to say this. Drinking and driving is the dumbest thing anyone can do. period. No way around it. If you drink and drive you're a fucking dumbass and i'm not going to go into inept detail in this journal but you all know the reasons why. No how in any goodconcious could i allow someone who a.) just got out of trouble. b.) has been drinking c.) is underage drive home on the most notorious road for people to get fucked on. i'm sorry. human life comes first. If people are going to make stupid decisions about something and i can change it and at least have the peace of mind that they're not dead or in mondo trouble i'll do it. No matter who it is. No matter where it is. No matter the situation. To me it's a fucking no brainer, to those who drive drunk you HAVE no brain.
that's all i have to say about that.

ah yes. Why would I of all the people in the world start a live journal account. I guess we all need some kind of refresher that people still do exist in this world. even though sometimes we tend to dissolve. I guess i just wanted to be able to write something everynight when i wanted to. i don't know, perhaps i'm just wired wrong.
Anyway, I'm going to go skateboarding with noah in like 7 hours or so that should be fun. I've really gotten into skating again...but i guess this time i really want to do it. I think we all can admit one time or another that we tried to fill the shoes of something we weren't. Ah well. I think it's quite enjoyable. you simply fling yourself around on a piece of wood and attempt to stay alive and do cool shit. What more could any person ask for?
I really want to fucking play some music. I'm a little pissed off that the band broke up but oh well sometimes people just are dumbfucks. and if you're reading this, yes i'm calling you a dumbfuck. We had a sweet deal going on, but i guess some people feel as though fufilling their destiny consists of well....doing nothing. Oh well fuck it. right? It's over. Got to get me some new tunes, get playing again. although i am a bit concerened with all this fucking school comming up rather soon. I'm a little scared that these classes are going to kick my ass. Oh. I'm so woed in the area of school. I try really really hard but i just plain and simple BLOW at taking tests. I can apply my knowledge in a non pressure situation, but when i hear the word " exam" i blank out. fucking peck. I can't believe i have to take that bitch again....oh well. fuck it. it's almost over right? I think my dad's going to be super pissed at me for dropping those classes. It just seemed pointless to me to continue going to classes that i tested out of. It's like...fuck that man. i know he's going to give me shit but it's not like i'm not fucking trying. ah mike, how we will never be able to pick apart your brain...
well i best be off to bed....skate and destroy in the morning...